New Years
i don't know about you...but it's like trae says " i never can keep my resolution, why make a promise i can't keep?" so this year i'm going to make a dumbass one. i'll stop eatingthe whole pack of tangerine altoids from Quiktrip...lmao. i'm serious. any other store i can, just not from there. ok well anyways... last night was so much fun. a whole bunch of us wen't to cameron shipman's house and partied. i think our group (trae, me, angel, and dylan) were the only sober ones. trae had a bad ear ache though....but he still had fun :-D well...i'm outtie for now.


<3 xoxo <3
Bear

Welcome to my life...--for now...anyways....
I "used" to be popular. Yeah, of course, keyword "used". My so called "friends" ditched me and kicked me off the cheerleading squad. The only people-well person who has been kind to me is the last person i thought would be nice to me. My ex boyfriend. I completely thought he hated me because of all the rotten things i did to him, but i guess he's still the same sweet, funny, caring,witty, and intelligent guy i fell for last year. You're probably wondering if i loved him so much why did i cheat on him, and use him, blah blah blah...the answer is: i didn't want to get attached. The thing is, after we broke up, i felt this weird feeling i'd never felt before. A mix of guilt and lonelyness. He treated me like crap for awhile, but he's treating me sooo good now. He's teaching me to skateboard too!--i'm trying to picture myself skateboarding...or even standing up on the board!-lol. He's also helping me with my homework and classwork and stuff- geez he's so cool. Now that i'm "unpopular" i'm realizing being popular is just being shallow and making fun of people who aren't popular. People expect too much of you when you're "in the `upper' status" as my former- best friend, Kristen, would say.*gag*. Ever since i started hanging out with my ex i've realized so many things...i've learned to stop and smell the roses...to stop making my nose scrap the ceiling, and i'm even getting into rock music! I might ask trae (my ex) if he could teach me to play guitar- or drums. Well for now i'm outtie. Cya l8r. stealing Trae's line Later Dayz--lol. --Cydnee